11 march 2010, 1.07a.m

everyone is sleeping,no people watching tv,no one sit in the living room,there is only my room come out with some romantic Cantonese song,by nicholas tze.and i was sitting in front the computer.thinking hard for some ideas to write in the blog.erm,lets talk about what is in my mind now.okay?(think-ing)hmm,chin hsuan,how are you these days?we have been long time din contact each others,although you are in my contact,maybe you are not using that number anymore,or...i don't dare to make a call...i feel you,i feeling your pain,your weakness,but i cant touch it...i wont say sorry to you anymore.there are thousand and thousand of scars in ours heart,no reason to forgive myself.stay happy and healthy.a pure bless

vincent,at the aged 19

before i was 19,i study hard for my spm,attend the national service...it was a nice memorial during the time in ns.i learn how to take care myself,helping each others,...and a lots...i appreciate and enjoyed it.

at the aged of 19,my responsibility to the family became heavier.i think is time to help my brother take care in our home business.honestly,after six month i work with him,but i still cant really handle even half of it.its quite hard to memorize all the units location, the owner, the rental and many many things.but i swear,i am doing all my best everyday.beside working,i am studying also,at first,i was really feel bored and exhausted everyday,because everyday was doing the same thing,work, study, work, study....except schoolmates,i shared little and little time with my another friends,drink drank drunk,that's all.i knew that,this is the stage of becoming mature,and now,i am trying to climb over it,i am growing up.